Had a catheter put in me back in May for no reason. The Doctor was the head of the Emergency Room I went to and came up with some bullshit reason of needing a clean urine specimen. I think the reality of the situation is he used me to train some dumb nurse. The procedure went wrong and after it, I noticed blood coming out of the tip of my penis. The sad part is when the nurse told me I had to do it I said I don’t think I should be doing this. She gave a shit less and completely disregarded my feelings. Ever since that day I’ve had painful urination and I’m totally traumatized by the whole thing. Sometimes when I start my pee it feels as if my urethra is ripped open by the stream. Most times after urinating I sit down and more urine dribbles out with a razor blade type feeling to it. I haven’t had sex since the incident with my girl in fear that it’ll make things worse. I feel so humiliated because I noticed some pages were omitted from my discharge paperwork that day so I ordered my full records and the doctor falsified the records to say I was unable to urinate on my own. I’m assuming he did this to cover his lying self. Needless to say, I turn 34 in December and I feel as if my life is over. I’ve been to two urologists and they said it was prostatitis which is basically an easy way out. My primary care says I’m being too sensitive. Before all this happened I loved life and new experiences. Now I feel as if I have nothing, but pain to look forward to in the future. I have anxiety every time I use the bathroom and rarely leave my house anymore. I have no more trust in Doctors. It’s quite sad. When I called the ER Doctor a few weeks ago to ask him why he lied and falsified the records he stuck to his BS story. I told him he ruined my life and trust for Doctors. I’m sorry to ramble on. That is my sad story. The day that catheter went in me my life was altered in the worst way, permanently. Every day is a battle. I try to play my guitar to keep my mind busy. It helps a little, but then I have soreness in my lower back and my bladder has been tender, as well. I drink as much as I can, and it’s mostly water. I no longer can have acidic beverages. Coffee and soda are out of the question. The only urologist who I trust is cross-country in California. His name is Dr. Joel Gelman, but I don’t have the money to see him. My girl landed a job out there, but we still can’t afford to see him because the job will not support the cost-of-living out there. You’re not alone. At least your brave enough to confront it. I’m a grown man and I’m too scared to get more things shoved up there. You were saying you were born with a stricture?