Thanks Dan! I definitely need to just let things heal for a while and get out of my head about it. I also spoke with my doc after posting this and he says spraying and slower stream isn’t uncommon in the beginning since there are internal stitches and the edges that were re-attached might not be flush together yet. That seems to make sense.
You said your operation is in December. When is it at? Re-reading some of the other posts I could find on Urethroplasty experiences, the worst ones seem to be those who were too afraid of the surgery and put it off. Stay strong!